As the ball
dropped in Times Square, kidlet #1, who, in all fairness, is my more visibly
emotional child, broke down in tears. When pressed as to what was the matter,
he’s simple reply was, “I’m going to miss 2013.”
I had to stop
myself from saying, “Well I won’t” because a. I’m working on being a supportive
mom, b. he was tired, and c. I wasn't exactly sure why I wouldn't miss it.
Last year has a special
place in my life timeline, especially in the world of writing, but also in my
personal life. As I have said about 100 times, I found MY agent, who is
awesome. I even got a couple book offers as the year closed out. I started
another book that has me excited to get back to it and I think I've finally
found my “voice” for writing.
The kidlets have
both reached the age of conversation with me, but also with each other. They’re
so close together in age that I swear they speak a language I don’t understand.
My husband says they speak boy. Mystery solved. In addition to having chats, I
am seeing their wonderful and very different personalities starting to come
into their own and yes, I have my hands full.
Life wasn't always
great this year. There was enough family drama to kill a camel, but still, that
didn't answer the question of why I was glad the New Year had finally arrived.
And then it hit me.
I wasn't happy
2013 was over. I was excited that 2014 was here. This is a big year for me. I
turn 40. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I have earned every wrinkle laugh
line and have some pretty great adventures in my scrapbook. Did I mention that
a childhood dream of becoming a published author will be coming true this fall.
What? I have? Get used to it. I have lots of self-promotion plans in the works.
But even more
than these two moments, I think, for the first time, I am excited about the
unknown. This is indeed very odd for me as I am a girl who needs a plan. I don’t
really care if the plan gets pulled off perfectly, but for the love of
everything that is holy, I need a plan.
That being said,
I am looking forward to the unknown. Of celebrating the successes of my friends
and knowing that, while not everything works out the way we want it to, there
is always a plan. So good-bye 2013. It has been a year worth remembering, but
not one worth crying over. It is the past and I am a better person because of
it, but it does not define me or any of us.
And before I go,
I realize that there have been one or two Downton Abbey-esque phrases turned
here or there, and for that, you are welcome, but remember, no matter what life
throws at you, BE BRAVE. (Yes, BE PASSIONATE has been retired for 2014.)
One of my favorite quotes is don't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened. ;) Congrats on such an awesome 2013, and here's to an even better 2014!
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